[Note: This piece features explicit photos.]

Twenty-three-year-old Marta recently decided to enter the porn industry in Barcelona. Marta, who prefers not to publish her full name, asserts she has never seen porn as taboo; she merely saw a good career opportunity. “I realized that guys were always staring at me,” she explains, “and, well, I could turn them on with just a look. If I could turn guys on without even trying, what would happen if I made an effort? I just started and here I am.”

“As an actress, I set my limits,” says Marta, seen here shooting a scene. “I’ll say, “I do this, this and this. If you do not like it, I’m out.' And if I'm on the set, and I see something I don’t like, I say, ‘Listen, turn off the camera and stop immediately.’ I frame my limits, always.”
“As an actress, I set my limits,” says Marta, seen here shooting a scene. “I’ll say, “I do this, this and this. If you do not like it, I’m out.’ And if I’m on the set, and I see something I don’t like, I say, ‘Listen, turn off the camera and stop immediately.’ I frame my limits, always.”
“When I'm working, when I'm fucking, I'm thinking about what I have to do; I'm thinking about the camera…I'm thinking about my partner, my actor; it’s very important for him to be comfortable…So this is not enjoyment, not pleasure,” Marta explains during her second week doing porn. “Some people think: ‘She’s an actress, she fucks and gets real pleasure.’ No, I’m working. I'm doing something that is totally scheduled. It's nothing like being at home, with my partner, making love.”
“When I’m working, when I’m fucking, I’m thinking about what I have to do; I’m thinking about the camera…I’m thinking about my partner, my actor; it’s very important for him to be comfortable…So this is not enjoyment, not pleasure,” Marta explains during her second week doing porn. “Some people think: ‘She’s an actress, she fucks and gets real pleasure.’ No, I’m working. I’m doing something that is totally scheduled. It’s nothing like being at home, with my partner, making love.”
After a few weeks of being in the industry, Marta, performing here in a peep show, realized it does not pay as well as she thought it would.
After a few weeks of being in the industry, Marta, performing here in a peep show, realized it does not pay as well as she thought it would.
Marta does not see herself as a victim of circumstances. She has no small children to support and doesn’t come from extreme poverty. She chose porn freely.
Marta does not see herself as a victim of circumstances. She has no small children to support and doesn’t come from extreme poverty. She chose porn freely.
Marta with her now ex-boyfriend, a Ukrainian body builder, whom she lived with for a year.
Marta with her now ex-boyfriend, a Ukrainian body builder, whom she lived with for a year.
Marta’s ex-boyfriend helping her remove pubic hair.
Marta’s ex-boyfriend helping her remove pubic hair.
Marta’s boyfriend accepted her job as part of her life, but had difficulty dealing with it. He watched her videos and saw her posts and pictures on social media. Marta admits that she wouldn’t date someone in the porn industry herself — and recognizes the paradox of asking her boyfriend to accept her job.
Marta’s boyfriend accepted her job as part of her life, but had difficulty dealing with it. He watched her videos and saw her posts and pictures on social media. Marta admits that she wouldn’t date someone in the porn industry herself — and recognizes the paradox of asking her boyfriend to accept her job.
Before starting in the industry, Marta had no partner, but craved a relationship. Although surrounded by men in her work life, she finds her personal life is spent mostly alone. She was in the industry for over half a year when she met her now ex-boyfriend.
Before starting in the industry, Marta had no partner, but craved a relationship. Although surrounded by men in her work life, she finds her personal life is spent mostly alone. She was in the industry for over half a year when she met her now ex-boyfriend.
In her own mind, Marta separates her public personality, the porn actress, from that of Marta, a very normal girl.
In her own mind, Marta separates her public personality, the porn actress, from that of Marta, a very normal girl.
Marta at the beach with her mother. Once she started in the industry, Marta explained the choice to her parents. She says they’ll never understand or accept it, but they stand by her. “They love me and are the greatest thing I have,” Marta says.
Marta at the beach with her mother. Once she started in the industry, Marta explained the choice to her parents. She says they’ll never understand or accept it, but they stand by her. “They love me and are the greatest thing I have,” Marta says.
When she was younger, Marta competed in and won female body competitions. She still regularly trains for bikini fitness competitions, but doesn’t consider herself ready to enter yet. "I’ll always have the gym…People come and go in life, except for family and a handful of lifelong friends, and the gym — my lifestyle.”
When she was younger, Marta competed in and won female body competitions. She still regularly trains for bikini fitness competitions, but doesn’t consider herself ready to enter yet. “I’ll always have the gym…People come and go in life, except for family and a handful of lifelong friends, and the gym — my lifestyle.”
Marta explains the world of pornography is very different from what she imagined. “I have to separate [porn and my personal life], because I can be very aggressive or vicious during shooting…but in my personal life I’m myself, I’m humble, I’m not a prima donna. When I work I have to be the best, have to be totally beautiful, I have to be absolutely perfect, while in my real life, everything is more normal, more down-to-earth.”
Marta explains the world of pornography is very different from what she imagined. “I have to separate [porn and my personal life], because I can be very aggressive or vicious during shooting…but in my personal life I’m myself, I’m humble, I’m not a prima donna. When I work I have to be the best, have to be totally beautiful, I have to be absolutely perfect, while in my real life, everything is more normal, more down-to-earth.”

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Katia Repina, born in Moscow in 1988, is a documentary photographer currently based in Barcelona. Her projects focus on intimate stories related to identity and sexuality.